April 27, 2015

I was sitting on a sandbar far from the shore that separated the sea from the incoming freshwater. I could spot several family members on the beach and in the freshwater side of the barrier. Looking to the ocean side, I saw something that resembled a pufferfish in the water. The water on this end was extremely deep and I felt a great urge to simply fall in to catch the gray fish.

A while later we were on the bus and everyone started rubbing large sticks of chapstick onto our foreheads. This was our way of teleporting to where we wanted to go.

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I was walking through the atrium of the hotel when I thought I saw the back of her head at one of the tables. I quickly walked past and tried to avoid all eye contact as I racked my brain wondering if I had simply been mistaken. I absentmindedly turned around and walked past the tables again. Realizing how foolish I was being, I quickly descended down more flights of stairs than necessary to get back to my room. I thought about messaging her again in case of the slim chance that it was really her that I walked past not once, but twice at this point. But I decided against it. The past was the past and as much as it pained me, it was better to leave things as they were. Driven more by fear than rational intent, I walked down the long hallway to climb up the stairs on the opposite end to retreat into my room.

As soon as I got back into my suite, I headed in the bathroom. I started to record a review for a movie that I held in particularly low regard. Every few minutes however the lights in the bathroom would turn off and I would have to turn them back on. I didn’t have any way of turning off the timer in the light switch. I opened a suitcase full of dirty clothes and took out a pair of paints that had been muddied at the bottom. To remedy this, I tore off parts of another pair of pants to wrap around the stain. Even though the bathroom was rather spacious, it got increasingly warmer until I gave up and opened the windows. When I looked out, it was as if I was on the 20th floor in the middle of a city. It was night out and everything just seemed so far away. I closed the window screen as a gust of wind came in through the partially open window. I sat in the tub for a while.